After rushing to get the train from my lecture this afternoon whilst juggling my suitcase and two bags, I was hot, flustered and very stressed. I hate journeys.
As I settled in to my seat with my iPod however, I realised it isn’t journeys I hate it’s the stressful situations I manage to put myself in. Like allowing 15 minutes to get from Uni to the station, collect my tickets and find my platform. Oh and that’s all after I forget the reference number to actually get my tickets and therefore having to ring a flat mate at home and get them to access my emails to get the number!
Sitting on the train on your own, hearing only the music from your earphones is like you are somewhere else. As I watched Southampton disappear behind me I was thrown in to my thoughts – it’s like being in a movie.
Come on, admit it we’ve all sat in a car or on a train watching the world pass by and imagined we were part of a movie, travelling far away from all that we love – or something to that affect.
Well anyway, my point is when your sat on the train with just music and your thoughts for company, you get thinking. A year a go I could never have done this. This being travelled from one place that I feel I belong to another – home!
I had nowhere else like that to go. Nowhere that had a point I mean. Now though, there is a point, a point to my life and all that I do – a feeling I have been waiting for.
I was between phases a year ago, not quite sure what it was I was looking for but knowing there was something. I worked 5 days a week and lived for the drunken weekend nights – that’s what really kept me sane, nights with the girls and a bottle of wine.
I’ll keep this one short because I’m on the train and just one stop away from mine! My life and myself are completely different to this time last year and that’s because I know who I am and where I am going. I have that direction I was looking for.
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